Just an old saying

Remember the saying "damned if you do and damned if you don't". Well I think maybe that is my old age motto. I can't seem to do or say anything right. Funny how dumb you get "again" in old age. Not good for much and too much bother for many. I think I am understanding my mom quite a bit better now. Often she would call with tears in her voice because she was just old and of no use. But, we still have much to give and much to be thankful for. Perhaps in the end a life equals all out and gains it's value Today Brad and I spent some time at the Nesbit home. The last chemo treatment has been a very hard one on Glenda even though it was only a half a dose. The nausea has been bad. Today she has even in bed. Tried getting up but just too weak and sick. Grandpa helped dig out the old mailbox holder with the neighbor Brother May today. They had a nice visit and found out that his wife went to school with Brad. Small world. We did the Monday cleaning of bathrooms and kitchen. They have such a great ward and the fridge us overwhelmed with food. Glenda doesn't eat much so Dan has a lot to get through. Today Conner had a PET scan to see if the swollen lymph nodes are cancerous. Will be glad to get results and know that he will be given proper medical care. I am suppose to be getting ready to go to St. George but, oh how I just want to stay home. But I was unable to go with Brad last year so I know I must be with him this year. He is always there for me so I need to get my act together and be there for him. However, he is getting tired of thus yearly trip and the convention.